Sunday, December 21, 2014

The Boy Who Could See The Devil




"The Devil is a liar" calmly replies an 11 year old boy, obviously irritated with the questions of two old men. "That boy is a trip ain't he?" asks one old man to the other, but there is no reply from his drinking buddy. His buddy just stares at the boy curled up on the floor, trying to make sense of things. The boy is clutching his head due to a terrible migraine; and his nose has a trickle of blood slowly making its way down his face. The old man who did not answer the question, asks one of his own. "What's wrong with this kid?.. Is he crazy?" he asks. "These kids wouldn't be here if they weren't" replies his friend as he reaches into his pocket. He pulls out an old handkerchief as he makes his way over to the boy sitting on the floor. He can barely walk for he's as drunk as a sailor lost at sea. Now standing at the boy's feet, he sways back and forth as he stands towering above him. He doesn't fall, even though he looks like he will with every sway of his unbalanced body. He slumps over, offering the boy his handkerchief with his outstretched arm. The boy can barely bring his eyes to focus on the offering due to his splitting headache. The sunlight in the room seems ten times too bright. His eyelids are dry, making any movement of his eyes a painful one. Even the tear drops do not sooth his pain. The boy forces his dry painful eyes to focus anyway for he knows he will need them shortly.
He knows the evil he will soon see.
He knows what he must do so that his pains will go away.
He sees the handkerchief dangling from a hand that's worked hard over a long span of time. The fingernails are yellow, dirty, cracked and 2 inches too long. His hands are terribly dry with huge knuckles that look like giant marbles. His fingers are bony and veiny, obviously arthritic and brittle. To top it off, his hand stinks of pork rinds and whiskey. The handkerchief is certainly in the same condition. None the less, the boy takes the offered handkerchief and wipes his nose with it. In doing so, he can see the smeared blood on the white of the linen. Even though it wasn't clean to begin with, the boy feels embarrassed. He is hesitant to give the old man his handkerchief back. The boy is also scared not to for he knows this man all too well. The old man drinks to escape his own ugliness. He is moody with or without alcohol in his blood stream. I minute he can be laughing in the midst of a game of "UNO" The next minute he can be slapping the boy across his face, accusing him of cheating during the game. As predicted and as expected, the old man doesn't take kindly to the boy keeping his handkerchief. He is also upset that he's got blood on it as well. Petty? Yes, but this is who he is to the core.
"Now ain't this a bitch?" asks the old man, while doing his best to keep his drunken body upright.
His question again went in the direction of his drinking buddy, who again is a man of few words. His buddy just stares at the boy curiously. The boy looks back at him, and as he stares into his manikin-like face, another drop of blood runs from his nose.
(Feeling like there is nothing to lose, they boy wipes his nose again)
"You have got to be kidding me!" says the old man as the boy vigorously finishes what he started. The old man and the boy are in an open archway that separates a hallway from a dining room on the first floor of a group home. The old man is the grounds keeper and the boy is one of the home's newest guest. The boy is sitting in the fetal position. His knees are at his chest with his back is pressed against the wood beam of the archway. The old man is staggering directly in front of him with his silent friend in the hallway besides him. The old man hunches over to snatch the napkin from the boy's hand but he stumbles off balance. He trips over the boys sneakers and falls head-first into the dining room. He hits his head squarely on the dining room table. It spins him around onto his back on the floor. He is not unconscious. The boy knows this because the old man is cursing him up and down, blaming him for what happened.
"Calvin! I need you to go get my pills and my cane from upstairs!" the old man says while clawing his way up a chair from the floor.
"But Ms. Nana said not to take your pills when you're drinking!"
The old man was slumped over in the chair, looking like he was going to pass out. Until Calvin got mouthy with him that is. The old man's name is Stratford Hall and he's a shell of his former self. Life has dealt him the same random cards it deals to everyone else. Stratford has not played the game very well and he knows it, yet he still blames the dealer.
"If you don't march up the damn steps and bring me my shit. I'm going tell the rest of the boys to beat your ass when they come home!"
Calvin looks at Stratford's drinking buddy, but he's as quiet as cat in a window. His face is void of expression and his eyes are lifeless like that of a doll. He stands in the hallway at the foot of the stairs. Calvin knows that he must go past him to get the pills, but he is afraid to do so. Calvin looks back over at Stratford just as he falls asleep in the chair. As soon as he does, the old man in the hallway speaks.
"How is it that you can see me?" asks the old man.
"I don't know I just can" says Calvin while squinting his eyes as his headache intensifies.
"Do you know my name as well?" he asks but Calvin doesn't answer this time. He rises up from off of the floor and starts to make his way around the old timer towards the stairs. The area around the old man is stale and without life. It feels 5 degrees colder in the space that's around him. Calvin tries not to look him in the face but he cannot help himself. He looks up at his face as he walks past and notices that his eyes have even less life in them than before. They are totally black now. The old man also has a nose bleed same as him...
Calvin starts running up the stairs but his headache stops him halfway between the top and bottom tier.
"Do you know my name?" The old man persists with his voice sounding like his position has changed. Calvin does not want to look behind him, but his curiosity gets the best of him. The old man with black eyes and a nose bleed no longer stands in the hallway. He is now a few steps down from him on the stairway. What stands at the foot of the steps is not a man at all. His feet and legs are that of a goat, with black hoofs and furs of silver and gray. His Pelvis, belly and chest are that of an old man who stays in shape. He is muscular, without clothes and without anything to define his gender. His neck is curled to the front of his body like that of a buzzard. He has black wings coming out of his back that look dingy and broken. His head is the skull of an Ox without horns or the black eyes he saw before.
"Do you know my name?" says the creature with a voice far different than that of the old man that was.
"We both know that if I say your name it will give you power" finally answers the boy, before he finishes running up the steps. He runs into the bathroom which is the first room at the top of the steps. No quicker than he can start closing the door, he sees the creature floating up the staircase. He slams the door and presses the button lock inside of its handle. No sooner than he does this, he hears the creatures voice through the door.
"If you truly know who I am, then you know this door cannot keep me from entering" says the creature in a voice that sounds like it is on Calvin's side of the door.
"You fascinate me Calvin... I don't want to harm you, I just want to talk to you"
Calvin's not sure if he's speaking the truth. But he is sure that it will be hours before anyone comes back. His eyes can see clearly now, without any pain. His head is still killing him, but not as much as before. So he knows he is on the right path. He turns his back to the door and slides down until he is sitting in the same fetal position he was in downstairs. Then Calvin answers the creature on the other side of the door...

"And what is it you want to talk about?"

Monday, December 15, 2014

Dazed and Confused... #Poetry Guest Blog by Byron Walter.




Dazed and Confused

Understand when I speak, that I'm just a realist, relaying poetic images from a broken society that's in front of me.

So contradictive gimmicks won't be portrayed or defined as the mold of me.

See I come from humble beginnings so understand that I don't believe in the false concept of flash.

Nor will my lines provide lies about SWAGG, blowing money fast, (excuse my French) or how my "bitch" resembles a money bag.

I believe that's the logic that weakens our community’s unity and keeps us detached.

So for my own personal growth, I try to position myself away from that.

At the same time try to open your eyes to see how we're all mentally trapped.

Inside of a world mislead, lost in confusion.

Where negative morals and values are displayed as a positive illusions.

And it dumbs down the thinking of lost souls, believing in false hope as a legitimate solution.

From times that have been, beaten into submission from social contusions.

When honestly the truth is,
most put themselves in these situations believing everything they're told before it's actually shown or proven.

So tell me who is,
Greater than anybody to have their word valued before being tested or even questioned on their motives.

And let's not forget,
that most rumors disappear faster than they are created, so what good is a source if their reliability is always retracted.

With that being said, I don't believe in a revolution and could care less if it will or won't be televised.

Truth is,
it won't matter if we continue to dismantle the perception of ourselves by increasing the ratings of the ignorance they choose to promote and televise.

Or better yet, continue to blindly boast and give praise to the violence going on in the "third world" cities in these states.

Hiding behind the excuse of poverty being the reason that they're just a product of their environment, making it ok that they glorify their own genocide.

And in the meantime, I have to hear another story about a young black man or child dying.

While the news, some of society, and their shooter use those same excuses to justify the homicide.

I say this because I want you to have your own opinion.


Remember this isn't to ridicule, just an interlude used to riddle you.

Examples used, to advise your eyes to open wide better on what should interest you.

Instead of propaganda rendering you dazed and confused.

- Byron Walter.



Wednesday, November 26, 2014

The Aphrodisiac of Power / Volume II




She was looking for a thug and she found one/

Amazed at how quickly her toes pointed to the ceiling above his bed/

Or should I say HER bed since she paid for it and he never gave her the money back like he said he would/

She was on his layaway plan/ laying a way he liked/ laying a way that pleased him and him only him/

Laying a way her life to a man who was so unworthy he almost didn't get this verse/

The type of cat to lay naked wearing socks and jewelry/ believes in Tom foolery/ and is nothing new to you and me/

Mediocre is his spirit/ the frame of a warrior but the passion of too much NyQuil and Benadryl/

Only good at sleeping… with her… although his eyes are always open/

Looking at everything on her body that bounces when her head is buried in the pillows and her ass is raised/

Her hair is getting pulled from the roots forcing her back to arch/

Her honey dripping down the back of her legs/ ripe and ready target waiting to be hit and never waits long/

Constantly pounded by injections of narcissism/ her self-esteem split like a melon on a hot summer’s day/

Her innocence tastes like sun kissed sugars to his negative palate/

She was looking for a thug and she found him/

Her body aches blinded by her ideals of masculinity/

Man is more than his physical abilities/

With every nut that drips out of her canal she slowly realizes that fact/

No conversation/

No emotions/

No connections/

Just erections/ stuffed inside places she’d never been fucked before/

Raw/ for many hours and a few encores/


Until of course when she asked for more/

and he hit the door/

GB

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

The Aphrodisiac of Power/ Volume 1 #REMIX

The Aphrodisiac of Power/ Volume 1



Power… When a woman tastes its sweetness, she soon becomes addicted to the many flavors and selfless favors of a sexual slave/

His balls securely in her purse, he is a man in flesh only/

Marionette is his true self and she is his Puppeteer/

Her pedicured fingernails are laced with strings connected to his spine, his limbs and the worst of him/

When she’s not showing off his balls to her girlfriends, she plays with his emotions through his ego using her body/

His submission and her dominance combine for 1 style of her art of seduction/

If this is too cryptic, hectic and poetic, allow me to say this plainly/

He loves her and she doesn't love him/

I would say she doesn’t give a fuck but she only has a single fuck to give/

In dominance she fucks his face till he can barely breathe/

His tongue ferocious and eager to please master, he expresses his love through tracing the eternity sign on her flower/

His erection is ignored completely while her selfish nectar flows down his lips, chin, neck and collar bones/

Do not show remorse for this man, for he enjoys her pleasure more than his own/

With thick thighs pressing tight around his jugular veins/ he must be feeling euphoric with a lack of oxygen to his brain/

His eyes rolling into the back of his head just as hers do/

No penetration in this situation/ Him releasing spasm after spasm into sheets at the level of her calf muscle/

Her releasing and squirting the back of his tonsils with her syrup and nectar/ his whiskers now soft from her shampoo and conditioner/

Her heels pressing the back of his neck until every drop of her essence is in his stomach/

Finally releasing his face/ now he’s breathing as heavy as an asthmatic who just climbed a flight of stairs/

His jaw dripping like a helpless puppy standing at the front door, happy that his master let him in from the rain/

Content in his defeat in his attempt to make her love him as he does her/

Believing foolishly he is one step closer to her heart when he could not be further away.

GB


Monday, November 24, 2014

Just My Thoughts: the nasty

Just My Thoughts: the nasty: As I think of the nasty there is to cum/ I think of the verses that have cum before/ Like flashes of wetness between skin on skin ...

the nasty




As I think of the nasty there is to cum/

I think of the verses that have cum before/

Like flashes of wetness between skin on skin when pelvis meets pelvis/

How I learned through a variety of lovers that no woman is the same/

Flavors of ice cream dripping down my tongue in liquid form/

Be for warned for this verse is not a poet braggadocio/

This is filaciou and being so deep inside your woman your family jewels lay resting on her chocolate starfish/

This is about chocolate layers on sugar walls, whip cream and cherries/

This is about fingernails breaking the skin above spines/ bottom lip bites and sweet pain moans/

This is about wobbly legs and trembling inner thighs/

Kidneys moving to the side/ wet from sweat milk and honey/

Open mouths that glide over nipples and navels, ankles, toes, elbows, the cracks of apple bottoms and Apple Jacks/

This is about a powerful day of getting fucked like you stole something/

A day where I was gentle as you needed me to be/

This is about dominance, submission, lust and trust/

You cumming down my throat as I exhale hot breath through my nostrils onto your secret garden/

This is about neck squeezes and ass slaps/ deep penetration and breaking backs/ bent limbs, euphoria and ceiling fans evaporating wetness from sheets/

Fingers so dangerously close to ground zero it makes her take the slightest of pauses/

Bouncing breast reflected by moonlight shining through drops of rain and storm/

The word baby repeated by lips tired of sucking and bodies exhausted from fucking/

This is about rib cages expanding and contracting housing hearts that beat like Latin rhythms/


This is about connection and intimacy, transparency and expression, wet instructors and hard lessons, lust and one of its many lyrical manifestos/

GB

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

"Universal Counterpart" A Guest Blog by Poet Byron Walter. #Poetry




I just want to be the one who helped you discover love again.

The one who manifested into your lover from your friend.

With you,
I just wanna lay naked in silence.

And at this beautiful moment, you can see where our soul's vibe thrives at.

To giving you forehead kisses with well wishes.

Promising to be your soul's protector with good intentions.

I swear I can see the universe when you open your eyelids.

Breathe life into me when I taste your lips.

Lost in this moment as time sits, for this euphoric feeling, is timeless.

When you're gone, I can't even begin to tell you were my mind is,

Know your presence is missed and I get lost in my thoughts as time moves slower.

And they say beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.

Just the thought of your image leaves me reminiscing.

Without you, I'm feeling like Otis.

Because these arms of mine, are lonely.

Missing the feeling of hearing that sound you make, gasping before exhaling all of your pain, fears, and worries away.

As I pull you closer to hold you.

And if ever tears should fall, because we've been displaced for too long.

Remember, the universe will bring us back around, just as long as that bond remains infused between our hearts.


But until that moment is presented, I'll be longing for my soul's connection, to its universal counterpart.....

Byron Walter.

Monday, November 3, 2014

Just My Thoughts: An Architect & an Opportunity. #Poetry

Just My Thoughts: An Architect & an Opportunity. #Poetry: Somewhere between the blueprint and building the house/ Somewhere between the meal going in the pot and the tasty food in your...

An Architect & An Opportunity #REMIX




Somewhere between the blueprint & building the house/

Somewhere between the meal in the pot & the tasty food in your mouth/

Is an opportunity/

To create the excellence you saw as a child/

And bathe in the sunshine of a lifelong dream/  

Ironically fully awakened to divinity making sense of infinity/ 

Realizing that inner space is just as vast as outer/

Listening to my highest thoughts/ god's whispers become louder/

Embracing the light inside like a dragon's jaws during the fire/

Urgency from the gate & not when things go down to the wire/  


You see somewhere between the blueprint & building the house/

Somewhere between the meal in the pot & the tasty food in your mouth/

Is an opportunity/

An opportunity to make your next move your best move/

An opportunity to be brave when you see greatness in the mirror/

To draw a square/ on the one part of Earth that is sincere/ stand inside of it and refuse to be pushed anywhere/

An opportunity to blow/ 
An opportunity to grow/
An opportunity to die slow
or
An opportunity to let go/


Tuesday, October 28, 2014

"Mission Statement" Guest Blog from Poet Byron Walter... @Hulkdup #Poetry




I believe in Peace, Positivity, and Progress.

I'm a soldier on the front-line fighting for it.

Also, the beam of light in the tunnel here to guide you from anything keeping you away from that consciousness.

So, with that being said, I have no adversaries.

Only awaited allies.

Patiently waiting to be awaken and open their minds to a spiritually healthier way of life.

And anyone opposed, I'll just give time.

Time to escape out of their mind, where they allowed their thoughts to keep them imprisoned.

Because the difference, between a hero and villain, is the way they chose to deal with adversity.

Because at one point and time, they were both a victim.

But remember, once you truly become oblivious to nonsense.

There will be some lost souls, trying to provoke character flaws that their mirror image reveals in them.

Don't fall to those cowardly gestures.

So, just relax and breathe before you begin.

For every triumph, is a battle that's won from within.

Byron Walter.

Thursday, October 23, 2014

Why #Slam is Important to the Culture of #Poetry

“Competition has been shown to be useful up to a certain point and no further, but cooperation, which is the thing we must strive for today, begins where competition leaves off”
-        Franklin D. Roosevelt

I have heard many arguments, from many artists, who are for or against competitive poetry events. (Slams) I see both sides of the argument and tend to ride the fence a bit when it comes to my own opinion. My opinion is in line with what Franklin D. Roosevelt had to say in the quote above. I will also say this. The poetry at a slam is a different experience than an open mic. The tensions are higher, the material is more dramatic and the subject matter is more compelling. At a slam you are seeing many artists in their most focused and most aware state. To watch one is to take a ride on an emotional roller coaster. Typically, you will witness the best verses from the most dynamic poets in any city that plays host. Sure, in a competitive environment, it is easy for an artist to forget about what really matters. More consumed with winning than sharing a verse that may change someone’s life. However, slam can be a beautiful thing, where comradery, creativity and character are all elevated to new levels. Do I want to win the next slam I participate in? Of course I do! And I will certainly be going for the gold. Yet winning does not dominate my inspiration. Sharing on a high level does. So if you live in, around or near Sacramento California, come out tomorrow or any 4th Friday of the month to Café Luna’s and enjoy. If you do not live in this particular area and you have an appreciation for the spoken word; I recommend you find the slam nearest you.
 Witness for yourself and see the poetic version of a modern day gladiator.



One who use words instead of weapons…
One who uses personas instead of shields…
One who views connection and winnings as the glory of war.

GB




Saturday, October 18, 2014

Just My Thoughts: Once Upon a Time...

Just My Thoughts: Once Upon a Time...: Once Upon a Time a little boy was nine/ with a brain still soft intellectually/ His young perspective being shaped like fresh...

Once Upon a Time...




Once Upon a Time a little boy was nine/ with a brain still soft intellectually/

His young perspective being shaped like freshly blown glass/ The little boy’s heart glows with passion in the same way/ he watches his elders entertain themselves with philosophy and tales of the times that were/ his little face beams with innocence as he watches the blueprint for his integrity/ the way hot glass turns from glowing red to crystal clear so does his lineage/ Cool as smooth glass, his soul is as calm as those who have true wisdom/ Cool like an epiphany that makes you aware of the singular conscious between all living things.

Once Upon a time a little boy was nine/ he traveled through time metaphorically/

His curious eyes study the silver whiskers of the guardians he will eventually become/ he examines the faces of alpha males at play/ he sees skin bathed in sunlight like his own/ shades of bronze and earth protect warriors with rebellious hearts and bold ideas/ arthritic fingers influence the mahogany of chess pieces with velvet on their undersides/ Scattered about are deacons and ministers who sit across from war veterans and factory workers/ a love of language flowing through everyone’s veins/ The little boy can feel the subtle vibrations of their baritone voices/ they duel in verse as rooks, bishops and pawns glide over diamond squares of dark and light/

Once Upon a time a boy was 9/ He wandered into the kitchen predictably/

Always curious about the female form/ always searching for women with hearts like his mother’s/ Loud laughter and folly filled the air besides the aromas of the oven/ Meals for small armies sit atop the same flames that heat curling irons and Virginia Slim Menthol's/ revolution is the air and the little boy can smell it here as well/ 

Once Upon a Time a man turned 39/ trying to recreate the happiness hey used to see/

The youth were no longer interested in double Dutch buses/ baseball cards and Bugs Bunny on Sunday morning/ the women looked at kitchens like a lioness would look at a choke collar/ the men speak on the tendencies of dick riders every time cooperation happens/ making teamwork seem uncool like raising your hand in class with the answer/ fear nesting in so many hearts the warriors now are a faithful few/

Once upon a time a man turned 39/ and he forgave himself/

He didn't beat himself up over his choices anymore/ he embraces the ways of old but knows that evolution is imminent/ his appreciation for homeland and horizon have a better balance/ Moving forward towards the book of the future the letters that spell fulfillment come into focus/ life has rewarded him with optimism and the gift of verse/ a slave to passion he may well be but he’s not a slave to validation or opinions that are not sincere/

Once Upon a Time a man came to find/
How to live in the moment and be conscious of the here and now.


GB

Sunday, October 12, 2014

1000 Words. (Last Night's Digression)

They say a picture is worth a thousand words. If that is true, then this blog has just over 1300 of them. Now picture this. Picture an artist obsessed with his legacy, completing project after project without the support of his peers. Picture an artist who was constantly told he was talented. Picture an artist who was constantly told he’d never make it by those same people. Picture an artist left for dead by his creative family and treated like an outsider for much of his journey.

Now picture a creative family located far from that artist's home; embracing that artist as one of their own...

Picture pure inspiration manifesting like electricity, lighting up the city of Sacramento. Microphones becoming light bulbs that glow as words flow through them. Picture like-minded thinkers gathering around that glow; realizing the power in unity as the kinetic energy inspires their soul.



Some picture a film screening. Others picture an album release party and a choice few refuse to see anything positive at all. I picture the beginnings of a movement. I picture how revolutions get started. I picture train tracks being laid as a nation starts to build it infrastructure in preperation for war.

Sure... I can talk about my catalog and pat myself on the back till my shoulder gets sore. However, last night was bigger than me or anything I have done as an individual, creatively thus far. I am finally a part of something that matters. I am finally surrounded by artists who bring more to the table besides silverware, salt and pepper…


 Peace to all who supported the 
“A Moment of Clarity” project. 
Those who watched the short performance film and/or purchased the music.


Available on iTunes (just click the cover)


A special thanks to all of my family who has been riding with me thus far. I’m not sure where any of this is going to take me. But I will document and “picture” the wonderful journey along the way…


GB